I am realizing that there is no worst time. Day or night. I am constantly thinking of you Donovan and I am constantly yearning to be able to change everything. To change something to turn back time. To have you back alive. My son. Alive.

Our lives are completely different now. My life is shattered. I am jealous of other parents who can think of their children who have died and smile at the memories. I am not there yet. I yell into the void I CAN’T BELIEVE YOU DIDN’T SURVIVE COVID!!!! Our new reality sucks. Saying I miss you is just not enough. I love you Donovan. – Mom