As long as I live on
You’ll forever be known
I reminisce because this
is how we grow
I got to carry on
Don’t worry your loved ones will
Never be forgotten
I promise.
Your legacy is mine
How else will I be able to push forward?
When I say Love Eternal I mean it
I’ll carry this burden.
Nothing is more beautiful and painful at the same time.

I remember calling my brother Johnny on Long Island to sadly tell him that our father died suddenly and unexpectedly in our New Jersey home. I let him know that I tried my best to save him but regrettably it was not meant to be. I was in shock and Johnny comforted me by saying that our dad died where he was so loved and we were all there.

It haunts me that my brother died in the beginning of the Pandemic, surrounded by medical hell. I hope I can try not to let this happen to others in the next Pandemic.

When I hear one of Donovan’s favorite bands playing on the radio, I remember the exact time he made me stop what I was doing to watch a video of one of their songs when it first came out.

In This Moment was the band; The In Between was the video. He called me and I had to watch the video — He said he wanted to hear my reactions. Now, In This Moment is one of my favorites. All their songs bring me to tears. It’s bittersweet.

I started thinking about back when we were both terribly sick in the hospital with Covid and pneumonia. We were talking to each other on our phones and laughing about things because we thought we would live …

I was talking to you about memories and how we would share them further down the road of life. We took pictures to capture those memories. What was captured was the worst memory of all. It is a memory of a different kind.

Stupid covid, sigh …

I lost my husband Tim and one of the things I miss most about him is how he always made me laugh. He even said it was his goal to make me laugh at least once every day, and he did.

One of my favorite laughs was the night after our wedding. We were in a hotel and I had laid my nightgown on the bed and went into the bathroom. When I came out, Tim was wearing my nightgown and laying on the bed doing the Burt Reynolds pose! I laughed so hard.

When it came to making me laugh Tim would do just about anything. When we went food shopping together, this 40+ year old man would tell the workers that he needed an adult because this strange lady was following him. Some of the workers would laugh, knowing he was joking, but some really didn’t know what to think and that just made it funnier when they were unsure what to do.