Halloween was my favorite holiday — as a kid, teenager, young adult, my whole life. It was about all things spooky. Absolutely loved it. THEN, Donovan was born — ON HALLOWEEN. Such fun we had.

Three years later — Stephani was born ON HALLOWEEN. I always thought it was so special — my kids were born not only on the same day but on Halloween. It will forever be my favorite holiday, my favorite day, but not for all things spooky. For that is the day both my children came into this world.

I love you both so very much, my pumpkins —
— Mom xoxo

The journey didn’t end when you died, for you’re like the Titanic — with 1 million wonders under the sea …

As long as I live on
You’ll forever be known
I reminisce because this
is how we grow
I got to carry on
Don’t worry your loved ones will
Never be forgotten
I promise.
Your legacy is mine
How else will I be able to push forward?
When I say Love Eternal I mean it
I’ll carry this burden.
Nothing is more beautiful and painful at the same time.

I remember calling my brother Johnny on Long Island to sadly tell him that our father died suddenly and unexpectedly in our New Jersey home. I let him know that I tried my best to save him but regrettably it was not meant to be. I was in shock and Johnny comforted me by saying that our dad died where he was so loved and we were all there.

It haunts me that my brother died in the beginning of the Pandemic, surrounded by medical hell. I hope I can try not to let this happen to others in the next Pandemic.

When I hear one of Donovan’s favorite bands playing on the radio, I remember the exact time he made me stop what I was doing to watch a video of one of their songs when it first came out.

In This Moment was the band; The In Between was the video. He called me and I had to watch the video — He said he wanted to hear my reactions. Now, In This Moment is one of my favorites. All their songs bring me to tears. It’s bittersweet.