Five years without James, some things are still the same but also completely different at the same time. I miss having a partner in this crazy world. My biggest hurt these days is not for myself but for the kids. So much is happening in their lives that he should be here for. I miss you so much JD. Seventeen years ago we spent New Years on the news with our newborn Julia. Now, New Years Day is tainted forever. I have not said “Happy New Years” to anyone since 1/1/21. For us, that is never going to be a Happy Day ever again. Always …