I will never forget when John Lennon was murdered in NYC at his home at the Dakota. My husband Mike was so upset that this senseless murder could occur. He loved Lennon’s music, especially the song “So this is Christmas” that John sang.

When I hear that song, I remember Mike struggling with Lennon’s passing and now I struggle with Mike’s passing almost three years ago. So this is Christmas. And what have you done. Another year over. A new one to become.

One evening, my mom and I were in the car heading to my house during a rain storm. As we were traveling we were discussing the difficulties I was having with my pregnancy and all the worries for my unborn child.

As I exited the highway, it stopped raining and up above was a beautiful double rainbow. My loving caring mom looked at me and said “You see that? Those rainbows are for us, the baby is going to be fine.”

And just like that, my baby–almost 30 now–was born early, a Christmas baby girl, so beautiful and healthy.

That was the first and only time I saw a double rainbow.

Mom, I wouldn’t have wanted to share that view with anyone else. I miss you .

Watching you brush your hair …
“How do I look Shugga love?” … Dave always asked me …
“Handsome” I replied …
Missing the simple things we shared …

I miss holding hands and praying with you …

You were full of love, laughter, stories, kindness and willingness to help others.
Missed & loved Mucho!!